Sangheili nerds

Stupid dumb ass Sangheili simps keep gatekeeping their forge worlds from me. Like dude just becaz I want to be a spartan they form a ring and spawn fight me 500 times till some get bord and they go to kill nubs somewhere in the base then the killer leaves eventually too. I can’t earn their respect it’s like I have to be a sangheli for them to treat me equally. Forget the noobs,I try to demonstrate sportsmanship, honor and benevolency but they don’t care cause I’m not good enough at the game to impress them like I don’t exactly ding their radar. Why R all the “social” servers full of people who don’t talk and they lock the doors to the base like dude did u make this server to voice chat with your scrubs or maybe even phone call just so you can kill randoms while you talk like that’s kind of funny but with a server name like “sangheili honor base, pride of the Zhor clan”, I expect to see the pride of the zhor clan. Apparently that pride is just sitting on a throne while the lesser ranks cuck the random Spartans in the server and give elites a chance to fight like I ain’t gonna pretend to be an elite I’m not clean enough for that I try to respect your aesthetic you should acknowledge mine. And the sadniss is all of these people are racist “white” people in real life (they can be not white but they act the same) racist halo puritans who say nasty things on other servers I bet but I mean I don’t know maybe I’m putting the sins of whoever’s convenient to my narrative onto others who have not sinned like that but some social servers people actually do talk and what’s funny is they’re meant for combat servers like why is everyone talking but no one wants to talk in the social room what does that say about society. But people say gross incel things like I joined and some guy immediately like the instant my username appeared said in chat “are you a girl I hope you’re a hot girl I’m stroking it right now” so gross and that was after I left that server for like 2 hours cause it was nasy and I came back and it’s even worse so bad dude. These guys should just kiss each other. But they’re homo phobic so they’re trapped in this firmament of no love. I mean maybe they have love of friends but friends who they have to joke about kissing they can’t just kiss it’s so sad. This game is confusing the culture is very old and still the same as it was back in its “peak” but now people say “lil bro” instead of bro. It’s really weird to see gen Z slang in a halo server. I like how people call it gen alpha slang no it is not. It’s actually not. Do not opress the next generation already. You invented these words and ways to put each other down. You use them. Gen alpha use them as a joke. For you idiots it’s real. And they have their own slang that isn’t talked about because you have a narrative. I hate to see these minuscule monsters turn out so similar to the boomer generation. Or maybe I’m thinking of another generation. I don’t remember. They kind of blend together. But yeah the sangheili are being racist because everyone is racist to them in other servers cause there still a minority and they stick out more than the Spartans so people target them more. Also we’re literally programmed to destroy sangheili in all the campaigns except halo 3. And halo 2 and ODST and some of 5. You Reach sangheili are always so tempting to crack like a walnut but I ignore my instinkts becaz I just want to see your forge worlds and watch you spar and maybe talk to you but I only talk if people talk first cause I want a natural communication with the wildlife. I’m going to sleep now. UNSC drowned rat reporting for going to sleep and hoping the construction guys aren’t afraid of the skulls. I keep forgetting they’re there. If you think about it, I think a sangheili is kind of as big as a horse. I just deleted this whole post by accident because of OCD but luckily this site has a built in undo button. Im too tired to remember if im sad. I don’t know what’s going on. I apparently come from a long line of alchaholic s so I drinked but I didn’t feel any better about anything. And what’s the difference between being too drunk to stand and just sleeping. I mean in terms of escaping the sadness. Sleeping is just better like I’m kind of disappointed alchahol isn’t the solution to my problems. But it’s not entirely off the table yet. I don’t even remember how long ago it was that I stopped being a soldier of light. Let’s see. It was basically uh. I don’t know some eras ago. I’m legitimately having trouble understanding how much time has passed since then. But I think I remember it was a gradual process. But it really concluded pretty hard kind of recently maybe. I don’t know all I have in my head is halo and I can’t remember much else cause it’s locked up or like archived so I gotta kind of dig for it but I don’t really want to. I should stop thinking about important things now and just go to sleep. So I can think about them tomorrow. I want to make some friends again. That was one of the things was don’t make friends. I forgot that was a rule. Maybe it’s a good idea though. But it was friends online / in the demon verse. Real life is good. But takes a long time.

Signing off,

Spit