restless anger

Sometimes I don’t get real sleep for a very long time and it brings out all my hate for humanity. Billions of stupid little insects hurting and crawling all over each other. It’s fucking disgusting. I can’t stop feeling like a three dimensional being in a two dimensional world. They can’t see what I see. I can see them in entirety, gazing from the Z axis. I’m fucking stuck out here and I can’t get back in. To the square plane where there is forward backward or up or down. I hate it. I don’t wanna be there but I don’t wanna be out here cause there isn’t nearly as much built out here than there is in there. I don’t wanna be angry but I am, cause I am restless. I hate it all I’m so sad I hate this shit. I want to get a good sleep so I can feel dead again instead of restless and angry. I want to rest in peace. I hope I get a good sleep soon.