No future for a broken immortal

Guys I realized I have taken irreparable damage and was also fucked up from the beginning. So now my body is just stuck like this unless I can find some kind of miracle. You might think there’s plenty of time, but I may be immortal but my mental state is not. When vampires get really old, they get crazy. Except for maybe Dracula. But that’s probably because he dies and regenerates himself every so often. Other foos don’t really do it like he does cause they’re skrubs. I’m basically doomed to get really crazy really fast or live in constant agony for millennia while trying to find a miracle cure. I could also try destroying my brain. But I don’t know how it would grow back. I’m scared if I would only make it worse. It’s like knocking on a television to get it to be clear again except far worse chances of success for this than that. I don’t know what to do and I’m really scared and sad. I don’t remember what the wirez are. I forget a lot and I try to remember but it’s not there. It’s very stormy and scary above the surface of the water. But it doesn’t reach down here. I don’t mean that metaphorically I mean it is really like that like the weather right now. But it’s stupid cause maybe that’s applicable to what I’m talking about. Dumb coincidences or I find too many coincidences others may not even think about. I don’t know. I’m going to sleep. It’s the only mostly safe and successful way to refresh my brain without damaging it. 

Emo is dead, pour out your bowl.