everyday i lie in bed sobbing, screaming into my pillow with anger and with sadness. me always hearing the same words coming from my moms fat latino mouth "crackbaby why are there so many blood stains on your sleeves" and i usually reply with a more sarcastic remark "why do i always see blood stains in ur underwear" she then ends up screaming for hours at me and i get so annoyed that i have a corner in my room where i have posters of her with holes in the wall from the dents my big meaty fists have made! before showering i do my daily cuts which i call them daily cuts because i am literally seeping a blade through my skin and digging through layers an layers of "dark memory's" the more i cut and the deeper i cut the deeper my thoughts become, "MY fucking uncles dog died" i tell all my classmates as they all look at me in disgust when i walk in the room every morning because i am so "wierdddd" and "emo". ok well thats why i am writing to you guys my only friends because u guys don't make fun of me about how i have a jar of foreskin that my mom had saved as a birthstone of my day of birth when they usually make fun of me for that i usually just take it out and say hey its not  that wierd and disgusting and use it to spread penut butter on the almond bread my mom had packed me that day. i want to rape the band teacher because i don't know if i have said this before but i think his authority and power is really cute how he makes my call him sir is so dominating and sexy, so i think i should show him my dominating side as i shove my dick in his tight asshole after class when he is cleaning up the classroom. HES SO STUPID I JUST HATE HIM BECAUSE HE SAID EMO KIDS ARE STUPID AND HAVE NO TALENT and so when i showed up that day for band tryouts in the beginning of the year i did the one thing i do best, i played the skin violin! well thank you for reading my autobiography and i hope you guys will now maybe read my new and upcoming posts on my daily life i hope that can give you my backround story of all of my past 15 years living on this earth so i can talk about all the new and stupid and boring stuff that happens to me everyday now that you guys are all caught up with my current life... also i have a guy That im talking to but he said he was gonna call the cops on me if i don t stop bothering him and harrasing him... haha i love it when guys play dirty, isn;t he so cute and sexy... well anyways that a whole other blog i need to write about him because he's a fuckn hot piece of manzzzz thankyou until next time CRACKBABY OUTTTTTTTTTT!